Afraid to step out on Faith…
FAITH.
When it comes to faith there are two types of people; those that can take the first step without seeing the entire staircase and those that need to see at least half of the staircase before taking the first step. I’m the latter. The space that I need to see between that first step and the rest of the staircase is FEAR. That fear developed through past experiences. That fear developed with age. That fear developed after stepping out on that first step and falling on my face.
How do you become comfortable enough to have faith again? How do you have confidence to take a second (or third) leap out on faith after failing? You wait. You continue to work on your belief. And most importantly, you take as much time as you need.
One day I’ll get there. One day my faith will be bigger than my fear. One day I’ll have faith to have hope when things are going great AND when things seems lost.
Like most, 2020 just feels different. When I came into this new decade I just felt like this year would be a pivotal year for me and while a few unexpected things have happened in the past couple of months, I know that the pivotal part hasn’t come yet. It’s definitely building up for something, I see the signs all around me, BUT it hasn’t happened yet.
To those that share the same fear as me, in time it gets better. There were times when I didn’t even trust myself. I wasn’t even sure I would be able to pull myself up out of the holes that I found myself in... but, after several close calls... I know God got me. I know that he has me in a lot of areas, but that leap is one I’m still working on.
How do YOU overcome fear?
No one can push you sooner than you’re mentally, physically and emotionally ready. No one can convince you to leap when you’re not ready and you shouldn’t leap just to please someone else (friends, family, partner, etc). Just like relationships, jobs, and any other life changes… we make decisions when we’re ready. Baby step your way into this, don’t rush… you’ll never be fully comfortable because if it doesn’t scare you, you’re not leaping far enough. Just know that, when you finally have that faith - you’ll know and no one will be able to tell you otherwise.
Please feel free to share your experiences with faith in the comment section below! And as always, thank you for reading!